We are wrapping up a season of Thanksgiving (although I’m not sure that this “season” of gratitude should ever end!).

I’ve spent a lot of time these past weeks pondering the goodness of God; focusing on the blessings in my life; making a conscious effort to not complain.

In all the thinking and talking and writing about gratitude, I can’t help remembering where God has brought me from in the past twelve months. You see, last year I was in a valley.  A terribly dark valley, and one that stretched on and on and on.

For nearly two years I walked a valley of depression and fear.

I never, ever thought that I (the girl who had it all together) would ever battle depression.  Strong people like me just don’t go there.

Well, I went there.  And I stayed there.  And I wondered if I would ever get out.

I shared, a little here and there, about my bouts with fear and anxiety, and the battle for my mind, my health, and my son’s health.

If you have ever struggled through depression, then you are well acquainted with the helplessness of it all. 

And the irrational thoughts and fears that plague your mind.  And disrupt your sleep.  And rob your joy.

This valley stretched on through my last pregnancy, followed me through the birth of our son, and dogged me after our family’s move earlier this year.

I simply could not ecape this valley, no matter how long or hard I ran.  It stretched to the sky,  no matter what direction my life took.

I despaired of overcoming.

Emotionally, I felt fragile.

Mentally, I felt weak.  Scattered.  Unable to focus or sort through even the most simple stresses.

Spiritually, I felt desperate.  I knew that fear and inner turmoil where not God’s best for me, as His child.  That His will was that I overcome.  But I was powerless.

I walked that valley, but not alone.

And, step by step, and by the grace of God, I walked out of that valley.

Today, I am on the other side.  It still looms dark, but it is behind me.  Praise God!

The night mares and irrational fears are gone.  The feelings of helplessness and inability to cope are gone.  Depression and oppression are gone. 

I am whole.

Walking Out of a Valley of Depression | by Kristy @ Little Natural Cottage

Like a soldier returning from a battle, I am victorious but bearing a few scars.  I know the darkness of my struggle, and I will never forget it.

Truly, I don’t want to forget it.

Why?  Because it reminds me of the fragility of this flesh.  I am broken.

I need the Lord! Desperately.

And because it reminds me that all humanity is flesh.  I am not alone in this valley.

Experience has taught me that depression is not just a plague of the weak or feeble.  It strikes the strong.  And leaves you weak and feeble.

Are you there?  In that dark valley of hopelessness and depression?

If you are, please take my hand and my words of hope.

You will walk out of that valley.  By the grace of God. One day at a time.  One praise at a time.

But you cannot put roots down in your valley.  You cannot give up and say that things will never change.

Things will change, because God will change you.

God will not bring you out the same person.  You will be different.  Stronger, yet acutely aware of your great need for Him.  Wiser, yet humbler.

You are equipped to overcome.

You will walk out.

 

 

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10 thoughts on “Walking out of a Valley of Depression

  1. Kristy — having walked through that long dark valley myself many years ago, your post is refreshing. This is a physiological situation that you cannot control by yourself. And due to the stigma you dont feel comfortable sharing with others. This is a difficult place to be when no one understands and so you have no one to talk to. But God. He’s always there in your darkest times and and always walks with you. This is where scripture learned as a child came to mind. He always knows. And that perfect word lights up. Recently Pastor mentioned that his family was working on scripture memorization. God prompted me to return to that special time of joy. I am currently memorizing Hebrews 11. I am half way through the chapter of 40 verses. What an awesome chapter. Bless you my friend!

    Posted on October 15, 2014 at 5:21 pm
  2. Kristy, it is so hard to open up and be honest with the things we struggle with.  I, too, have had some struggles in this area through the years.  I’m so glad we have the Lord to help us during these times.  I’ve never been clinically depressed or diagnosed, but we women know when we have hit bottom.  I will have to say I have been there  for several months, but feel I am beginning to feel new strength!  I cling to God’s promises and get a boost when He uses people (like you) to help a sister along! 🙂

    Posted on December 1, 2011 at 9:43 pm
  3. I really appreciate your humility and heart in this post, Kristy. Even though I’ve never been “clinically depressed,” I do know what it’s like to feel like a failure, to be sad, weak, tired, and emotional. How wonderful that the answer for you is the answer for everyone: God is faithful and true! (Hebrews 13:5,6)

    Posted on November 30, 2011 at 7:47 am
  4. That was a beautiful post, Kristy.  You blessed me with your truthful and humble words.

    Posted on November 29, 2011 at 11:07 pm
  5. I’m so glad you’ve made it to the other side.  Thanks for this wonderful post!

    Posted on November 29, 2011 at 2:33 pm
  6. I’ve been there, Kristy.  It was after a severe illness that left me with panic attacks.  It is mostly behind me now, Thank God.  In my memory, I see that year dark and frightening.  Fear is one of the most horrid things to live with.  Thank you for this post.

    H. Rae

    Posted on November 29, 2011 at 1:16 pm
    1. I agree- fear IS horrid.  It can be absolutely crippling.  I’m so glad “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind”.

      Those Scriptures have helped set me free!

      Posted on November 29, 2011 at 1:26 pm
  7. Kristy, as you know that I have also been through all that you mentioned. I suffered deep dark depression for a long time, including during my last pregnancy and after. I am doing a lot better, but like you said the darkness is behind me and I can’t forget it. I don’t live in fear of it coming back, but if it does I know God is with me. Thanks for sharing this. For I felt like I wrote this myself. Blessings.

    Posted on November 29, 2011 at 10:11 am
    1. Chrissy, I do remember you sharing about your experiences on your blog.  In fact, your blog blessed me many times throughout this struggle.
       
        I learned from you- and others- to be open about my humanity.  I tend to hold it all in and keep a stiff upper lip. 
       
      Many, many times in life, we need support, prayer, and encouragement from one another.  Thankfully, during those times when we can’t share (for whatever reasons), God is enough… and more than enough.
       
      Thanks for your comment, my friend.

      Posted on November 29, 2011 at 1:25 pm